4 years

4 years ago today was a Wednesday…and a day that changed our lives forever.

It was the day we met Button for the very first time.

ButtonIt was the day we lost Pa.

me and pa

It seems so long ago and yet, only days.

Pa is still terribly missed but never far from our hearts.  The kids know who he is and that he is in heaven.  They talk to and about him on a daily basis.

Today Button sent a balloon to heaven for him.

It breaks my heart that they never met him in person.  They would have adored him and been adored.

But I know that he still has a place in our family.  And that is a wonderful thing.

19 Responses to 4 years

  1. Linda says:

    No wonder you fell in love with her. She’s sooooo beautiful! Hope today is more joyous than sad x

  2. priscilla3 says:

    You dad is still with her , your daughter had just arrived from heaven as your dad went to heaven I’m sure they are more connected then we can know.
    Big hug.

  3. oh my, it brought tears to my eyes.
    I do still remember this 4 yrs ago! I was so happy for you and so sad at the same time.
    we just lost my mother in law, April 16th.
    It is very sad and truly hard, every day gets better, but she is missed.
    Your little girl is so precious 🙂

  4. K-Line says:

    Every time I think of this, I’m amazed. I just watched an episode of Call the Midwife last night wherein a woman has a baby on the same day that her father dies. The experience of grief and joy, simultaneously, would be incomprehensible, I imagine. What a lovely gesture for Button to send a balloon up to heaven for her grandfather. Was that top photo taken on the very day that you met her?

    • I still can’t get my head around it. It’s such a very tangled web of happiness and loss. He would have loved them both so much.
      The photo was taken a couple of weeks later during our first visit to Ma’s. We had missed the funeral but desperately wanted to see her, so travelled at the first opportunity.

  5. Susan says:

    Oh wow Evie… Having not “known” you at that time this is the first I’m realizing this. What a bittersweet day. I can imagine that it being Button’s homecoming anniversary may make it a bit easier to bear the sadness today. It sounds like you are honoring him well, and making sure that your children know him the best that they can. Hugs!

    • Thanks for the hugs. Both of them are a blessing and I’m so very proud of them that they love their grandfather very much even though they haven’t met him. It’s wonderful.

  6. My thoughts are with you on this both bitter and sweet anniversary.

  7. This post sums up how crazy life can be…one of the happiest moments can happen right at the same time as the saddest moments… though we all know this is part of life it’s always hard to tackle the sad parts! When I see the photo of you with your dad I now think of the trips you told me about and of the fond memories you must have.

    • It’s a great lesson to make the most of life…you don’t know what’s around the corner.
      I love telling the kids the stories of my travels with Pa…they generally have some fun mishap or other that makes us all laugh.

  8. Sue Taylor says:

    I can’t believe it’s 4 years already. We both still talk about your Dad and we miss him too. He would have been the most amazing grandad for your two lovelies and he would have been so proud of you two for being such fantastic parents.

    • Thank you. The world is a less colourful place without him, that’s for sure. I’m pretty sure he’s sat on a sandbag with a bottle of Jack watching the going’s on….

  9. Tears and laughter. sadness and joy – it’s tough but experiencing the extremes makes us appreciate life to the fullest. I’m so happy for you that something wonderful happened to you and your family in amongst such a sad, sad loss.

    • Thank you…it really does focus the mind on the fragility of it all and how you have to grab life with both hands. I don’t always remember to do so…but I do try very hard.

  10. Vicki Kate says:

    What a bitter sweet day. Button is beautiful and a blessing and I bet your Dad is looking out for her. Love to you and your family x

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